i lost my angel.


this time tomorrow, i wont be here.

technically, it is already tomorrow, cause i thought it was still thursday. okay fine, so twelve hours from now, i'll be gone.

yeah im running away. my luggage's all packed and i've got my travel plans and documents right. i cant take everything thats going on right now. its driving me crazy. so im running away.

nah.

kidding. as if im running away. i'd probably need someone to sponsor me. haha who'd sponsor me? anyone?

but i am going overseas. so i wont be blogging for a week. continue to tag(please?) and stare at the photos and miss me(haha okay im not betting on the missing me part).


behind it all, you dont know me.

i would have joined photography if i wasnt so horrible at it. so heck i wanted to push my luck; picture above was meant for submission for a photography competition but in the end i forgot about it.

anyway,

do you bother to think of me every once in a while?

shut up & dance

dance class the other day was really fun.

sweat.. okay no, perspired like crazy. but then i forgot to bring extra clothes to change into or even a pack of tissues to wipe of the sweat. laughed alot over nonsensical things. girls mah, haha.

danced off the sushi i had with regina that day. and ended up really hungry when i got home.

hip hop and lyrical dance routines for two hours. enjoyed, really. and the choreography was really cool.

looking forward looking forward to the next lesson.


i think i look odd here. was sweaty and disgusting.

haha sorry xiu xian, whose face got cut off.

dance dance dance dance.

i cant wait.

bottled smiles & spilled sunshine


cause you're always at the door when i come home.

the other day when i was crying, she came up to me and started licking my face like crazy. i dont know if my tears tasted disgustingly nice or if she was trying to console me.

but

i love her all the same.


she probably thinks she's my boyfriend.

haha jealous yet?

the stage, my dear, is yours


musical evening 2008

yesterday was perfect. well almost.


gorgeous gorgeous, to die for(or dance for haha) bouquet roses from vera and wanyi.

thanks dears, really.

funny how i've been on stage countless of times but still get stage fright whenever i see those faces in the audience staring me down. i can blink right at them and be surprised i havent yet fainted in front of everyone. thank god at least i didnt faint from fright last night.

i dont get butterflies in my stomach, its more like a hurricane churning in there.

after the whole concert was over we practically screamed till our eardrums hurt. well okay, we didnt scream, we shrieked. cheered and shrieked even more and than photo taking was just really weird. celebrity, haha.

photos photos. where i look like an auntie heading down to the market with a receding hairline oh gosh.






eyeliner-ing

haha this is ms sim.













the cheena couple

doing poses in front of the urinals HAHA





















i am honestly rendered speechless by this. haha.











this was how my hair turned out after un-bun-ing it.

now that the photos are up,

yours truly is going to catch up on her stoning and subsequently her beauty sleep.


its okay, really.

got lost in hope.

"you're not here. but its okay."

i could count a hundred other things i'd rather be doing right now than sitting in front of my computer screen falling asleep while stoning.

so live with another of my so-short-its-nonexistant-post.

but anyway,

meet my sunshine kid.


this is my niece

and i love her to bits.

sheesh, and i look like a lion in the photo.

if you could see me now


sweet sedation, this ignorance.


"daddy's little girl". i dont believe in it.

fucked up world we're living in. because it should have been "daddy never knew his little girl".

i could scream until the people around me stop hearing and start listening. but im not a little girl anymore. so no more throwing tantrums, no more crying.

im left to wonder when you'll start listening. you're left to wonder when i grew up while you werent listening.

lost & found promises


captured megawatts.


little black dress.

haha i never imagined myself saying this, but now i have my own little black dress.

i could jump off a building and attempt to fly. happiness is contagious. and shopping shopping oh gosh shopping is always a good reason to spread the happiness, the smiles blah bla blah.

of course, with every dose of a drug like this, stupidity comes naturally as its side effect.

today during breakfast i was walking back to the table when i kicked the wall. yes this huge huge painted wall made of concrete that could never move, was so big and which was standing there the whole time right in front of me. and i kicked it.

and now my toe really really hurts. no not in the "bimbo ouch it hurts" kind of way, but the oh-my-god-i-think-my-toenail-is-going-to-drop-off way.

so yeah, mourn for my little toe.


anyway.

while i wallow in self pity, more pictures from swimming(more like failure tanning. haha.) over at jollin's place.












i could do the photoshoots for elle and lixin can be my model. haha.













so i found the promises we made years ago.

friends, just like you said, always.